How do you feel about yourself?

Look back at those times when you thought your were terrible at something then someone else says you're good at it.

Look back at those times when you thought you were ugly then someone says you're beautiful.

Look back at those times when you thought you failed at something so miserably then someone else finds a solution.

How you see you and your abilities ALMOST NEVER match someone else's view of you.

This is all in your head... no you're not crazy

I used to be like that. It's hard to admit but yea, true story, I had loads of insecurities and whoever got close got the worst end of the stick. I had extra high expectations for myself and others and that opened doors for disappointments. I held my head up too high on my high horse and I was mean to every one who I thought were not on my level.

It was my poor excuse for a defense mechanism.

Treating people like crap didn't fix anything. I was alone, disliked and still stuck with disappointments. The thing is, I was only disappointed at myself and I projected that to anything and anyone I touched.

It's a vicious cycle. It's poison. It's toxic. It's also contagious.